to think, to deem / 思う: (と〜) to think that / to long for, to yearn for

carefully deliberating

to deliberate carefully

he / distal demonstrative, something far off removed from both speaker and listener: that / boyfriend

distal demonstrative, something far off removed from both speaker and listener: that, yon / particularly, male personal third person pronoun: he / by extension from he: boyfriend

he; boyfriend

in front of, before, ago,

in front (of) / before (in time)

before / in front

to be irresolute