"to even depend on straw": to rely on the unreliable out of desperation

desperate

situation (position vis-à-vis surroundings) of something that changes

to find / to seek, to look for / to desire, to wish / to demand, to sue, to compel

縋る: to cling to (physically hang on); to rely on, to depend on, (relationship of trust)

despair; hopelessness

to despair, to abandon, to lose all hope.

thought / feeling, emotion, sentiment

considerate of; caring about

to cling to (physically hang on) / to rely on, to depend on, (relationship of trust)