伸るか反るか

“[…] Dekiru ka dekinai ka, noru ka soru ka, jibun no isshō o bō ni furu ka mo shirenai ga, tonikaku yatte miyō” kō itte tsukue ni kajiritsuku yō ni shite hon o yondari fude o tottari shite kita.“[…]Whether I can do it or not, sink or swim, I might ruin my own life, but I’m going to try anyway.” That is what I said to myself, and then I glued myself to my desk and read books and took up my pen.