alternating; one after another / all mixed up and indistinct

thought / consideration

bittersweet

sad pleasure

(uncommon) bittersweet

(uncommon) sad pleasure

得る, 獲る: to get, to acquire, to gain, to obtain, to win, to catch / 選る, 撰る, 択る: to choose, to select / 彫る, 雕る, 鐫る: to carve, to engrave; to inlay; to drill, to make a hole

有り得ない: impossible

穢多: (historical, offensive) the lowest group in Japan’s caste system during the Edo period

past tense of える (eru) [ichidan]